All that i want to know.....Why NO???????

She was just standing there, waiting for me to comment on the saree. Well, she didn’t ask me, but i could tell from the look in her eyes that she wanted me to say something. We had discussed about this day over 100 times. It wasn’t the first time that i was seeing her, but, by god, i haven’t seen her look more beautiful, ever, than she looked today. I just wanted to hold her hands and tell her that. I wanted to give her a big hug, but all that i could muster was “you look good”. Well, that’s me. I just kill a situation. Plus had i done all that, she would have got very conscious, and the rest of the day would have gone without her speaking to me. Ouch! So i spent the rest of the day just standing there, looking at her. And then my girlfriend came...........
My name is Krishna. My wonderful mother went to Mathura to pray to lord Krishna to bless her with a child, just like him. And bless her, he did. And my mother named me after him. Maybe the qualities that she wanted the lord to bless her child with weren’t exactly the same that the lord blessed me with. He kept all the good things and blessed me with the traits that he is most famous for.....a big flirt and others that made me even better at that first trait.
The lord had many gopis, i had many girlfriends. I met my first girlfriend when i was in 2nd grade. A bit early, isn’t it? i know, but what could i do, the lord himself was at work. The second, when i was in the 5th grade, then another in the 8th, then 9th, 11th, and then one in my engineering. The list would have gone on and on, but i guess the lord realized what he has done and thought that it was time he did something to rectify his mistakes.
Engineering got over, and with that, my relationship with my girlfriend also. I was a free bird once again, ‘khula saandh’. A new chapter began in my life. I went to IIM Bangalore to do my MBA, something that i never wanted to, but they said that if u do an MBA then you get a big pay check...and i loved that idea. For all those who have already judged me, or, are starting to judge me, i didn’t want the money for myself, i wanted to build a house for my parents, give them a luxurious life, etc etc. But that’s a completely different story, and we will come back to that sometime later, but for now, i had gotten into one of the most prestigious institutes, and life had a settled look to it. I met my (wait...was it 6th or 7th, who cares?) new girlfriend too.
Life was hectic. With so much to study (i was a pretty good student), a girlfriend to manage, and all the out of the curricular activities (note: out of the curricular and not extracurricular), i needed to relax. And every time i had to calm down, or relax, i had Gungun to help me with it. she is my best friend (and yup, she is a girl). With her it was different, because she was different. We spent hours talking or messaging. I loved to spend time with her, to talk to her. There was nothing weird about it, or at least i thought so.
Everything was just fine. I didn’t even realize how 1 year had passed. But then, i was getting bored of my girlfriend and wanted to dump her, badly. And that’s when the lord thought, it’s time to act. Now let’s fast forward to that beautiful day....the day i realized i was truly, madly, deeply in love with Gungun.
She was just standing there, waiting for me to comment on the saree. Well, she didn’t ask me, but i could tell from the look in her eyes that she wanted me to say something. We had discussed about this day over 100 times. It wasn’t the first time that i was seeing her, but, by god, i haven’t seen her look more beautiful, ever, than she looked today. I just wanted to hold her hands and tell her that. I wanted to give her a big hug, but all that i could muster was “you look good”. Well, that’s me. I just kill a situation. Plus had i done all that, she would have got very conscious, and the rest of the day would have gone without her speaking to me. Ouch! So i spent the rest of the day just standing there, looking at her. And then my girlfriend came...........
I broke up with her a few days later.
I hate summer holidays. They are bloody long, and this time, they kept me away from Gungun. We did speak on phone, and would chat for hours together online, but i wanted to see her, tell her how much i loved her, but the stupid holidays. And then the college reopened.
But there was this small problem. Gungun, you see, is a very confused girl. She hates commitments, and the moment she hears words like love, she starts walking in the opposite direction. And as you would have figured out, my life revolves around these very words. So, i guess the problem is pretty clear now. I figured, the moment i tell her how much i like her, she would break all contacts with me. and i dint want that to happen. Coz, by then i had realized that, without her, i would just breakdown. So i didn’t tell her anything, and everything was okay...not great, but okay.
It’s not easy to keep such things inside for very long. So i day, i mustered all the courage and told her. And then, the waiting game began...and the game is still on. Since the day i told her how much i love her, that i wanted to spend the rest of my life with her (ya, i said that!!! And i meant every word of it) she has just one reply to all of it.....

Love....Its a Stupid yet the most Beautiful Feeling

There are very, very few things in this world that will be present for eternity, even after the earth goes down or the sun bursts into flames or grows so big that it gobbles up the earth itself, and they are called emotions. Anger, happiness, sadness, desires all these are emotions. And the source of all these emotions is....... LOVE.

We are angry at someone because we either love her too much or we love someone else too much to let anyone else hurt them. We are happy because we feel love around us, sad because we don’t; just the way u feel good when there is a breeze blowing and u feel suffocated when you don’t.

There is one question which is just as eternal as the feeling of love, and that is the question of faith. Faith as in not only the faith/belief in the presence of a higher power, but as in the faith between two individuals. The question is, “whether you have faith in me or not”.

Now you may wonder, why am I talking about faith when I should be talking about love, that being the central idea here. Well, I believe faith and love are correlated, if you love someone, you got to have faith in them, and if you have faith in someone, u love the person

When someone asks, “show me how much you love me?? “, or” show me the faith you have faith in me”, many don’t have an answer for that. Because there is no answer for that. You cannot see love, you can only feel its presence, and just like the breeze of cool air that’s makes you feel so very good.

There are many definitions of love, some being very true and some other just plain mockery. Today’s definition of love is sum wat like this.... as a point when u are able to match frequencies with your partner. Are we transceivers????? I still cannot comprehend the meaning of such a statement. love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous. Love is never boastful, it is never rude or selfish, and it does not take offence and is not resentful. When one truly comprehends the meaning of love, one finally is at peace, because being in love is like having your guardian angel walking right beside you watching your every move.

Being in love is the greatest feeling that one can ever have, and that my dear readers is the story of my life.

My entire life had gone by trying to understand the true meaning this four letter word. I fell in love again and again, in search of my answers. But to no avail. 20 years of my life went by looking for the answer and then when I had lost all hope did I find my answer. And that too in the most unexpected of places, in a hug.

The entire world knows her as the hugging saint. We call her amma. She spreads the message of love all around the world withal simple gesture, a hug. This is truly called the “jaddu ki jhappi”. This wasn’t my first time. Amma had hugged me several times before. But this time something was different, something wasn’t right, or maybe something was wrong all this time and was made right this time.

Today I have found the answer to my question. Today I am at peace. Today i hav found my love