All that i want to know.....Why NO???????

She was just standing there, waiting for me to comment on the saree. Well, she didn’t ask me, but i could tell from the look in her eyes that she wanted me to say something. We had discussed about this day over 100 times. It wasn’t the first time that i was seeing her, but, by god, i haven’t seen her look more beautiful, ever, than she looked today. I just wanted to hold her hands and tell her that. I wanted to give her a big hug, but all that i could muster was “you look good”. Well, that’s me. I just kill a situation. Plus had i done all that, she would have got very conscious, and the rest of the day would have gone without her speaking to me. Ouch! So i spent the rest of the day just standing there, looking at her. And then my girlfriend came...........
My name is Krishna. My wonderful mother went to Mathura to pray to lord Krishna to bless her with a child, just like him. And bless her, he did. And my mother named me after him. Maybe the qualities that she wanted the lord to bless her child with weren’t exactly the same that the lord blessed me with. He kept all the good things and blessed me with the traits that he is most famous for.....a big flirt and others that made me even better at that first trait.
The lord had many gopis, i had many girlfriends. I met my first girlfriend when i was in 2nd grade. A bit early, isn’t it? i know, but what could i do, the lord himself was at work. The second, when i was in the 5th grade, then another in the 8th, then 9th, 11th, and then one in my engineering. The list would have gone on and on, but i guess the lord realized what he has done and thought that it was time he did something to rectify his mistakes.
Engineering got over, and with that, my relationship with my girlfriend also. I was a free bird once again, ‘khula saandh’. A new chapter began in my life. I went to IIM Bangalore to do my MBA, something that i never wanted to, but they said that if u do an MBA then you get a big pay check...and i loved that idea. For all those who have already judged me, or, are starting to judge me, i didn’t want the money for myself, i wanted to build a house for my parents, give them a luxurious life, etc etc. But that’s a completely different story, and we will come back to that sometime later, but for now, i had gotten into one of the most prestigious institutes, and life had a settled look to it. I met my (wait...was it 6th or 7th, who cares?) new girlfriend too.
Life was hectic. With so much to study (i was a pretty good student), a girlfriend to manage, and all the out of the curricular activities (note: out of the curricular and not extracurricular), i needed to relax. And every time i had to calm down, or relax, i had Gungun to help me with it. she is my best friend (and yup, she is a girl). With her it was different, because she was different. We spent hours talking or messaging. I loved to spend time with her, to talk to her. There was nothing weird about it, or at least i thought so.
Everything was just fine. I didn’t even realize how 1 year had passed. But then, i was getting bored of my girlfriend and wanted to dump her, badly. And that’s when the lord thought, it’s time to act. Now let’s fast forward to that beautiful day....the day i realized i was truly, madly, deeply in love with Gungun.
She was just standing there, waiting for me to comment on the saree. Well, she didn’t ask me, but i could tell from the look in her eyes that she wanted me to say something. We had discussed about this day over 100 times. It wasn’t the first time that i was seeing her, but, by god, i haven’t seen her look more beautiful, ever, than she looked today. I just wanted to hold her hands and tell her that. I wanted to give her a big hug, but all that i could muster was “you look good”. Well, that’s me. I just kill a situation. Plus had i done all that, she would have got very conscious, and the rest of the day would have gone without her speaking to me. Ouch! So i spent the rest of the day just standing there, looking at her. And then my girlfriend came...........
I broke up with her a few days later.
I hate summer holidays. They are bloody long, and this time, they kept me away from Gungun. We did speak on phone, and would chat for hours together online, but i wanted to see her, tell her how much i loved her, but the stupid holidays. And then the college reopened.
But there was this small problem. Gungun, you see, is a very confused girl. She hates commitments, and the moment she hears words like love, she starts walking in the opposite direction. And as you would have figured out, my life revolves around these very words. So, i guess the problem is pretty clear now. I figured, the moment i tell her how much i like her, she would break all contacts with me. and i dint want that to happen. Coz, by then i had realized that, without her, i would just breakdown. So i didn’t tell her anything, and everything was okay...not great, but okay.
It’s not easy to keep such things inside for very long. So i day, i mustered all the courage and told her. And then, the waiting game began...and the game is still on. Since the day i told her how much i love her, that i wanted to spend the rest of my life with her (ya, i said that!!! And i meant every word of it) she has just one reply to all of it.....